回忆

曾经的甜蜜旋转在脑袋

滑到心里

带着点苦涩的味道

Jesus,Take the Wheel-Carrie Underwood

faith

the one i wish i can hold on to forever...

you cry, 

every tear that drops

your disappointments shown,

because you can dream no more.

i know. it is fear

as dark as a black hole

sucking all the possibilities,

shattering them apart.

but hey,

success isn't the only solution,

neither failure points only towards dead end.

it sounds absurd

but listen:

the road to victory 

is the process of learning to fall.

many knew the truth

yet misintepreted it.

(they fell from cliffs and roofs)

so beware.

we grabbed too many along the journey

until we suffocated ourselves.

perhaps,

it's time to empty our hands,

to fall from our own plans,

to surrender.

it's time to trust.

软软的豆腐

刚才在朋友的部落格里看到一篇关于她感受的文章-- 不想继续做豆腐。说真的，最近的我真的越来越像一片快要烂掉的豆腐。不为什么，纯粹只是因为自己太过软弱，经不起那么一点点的挫折。说真的，最近很不开心，却又不知该如何去处理这感受。整个心像一片的豆腐，触碰到伤口就直接被击垮。一直都以为自己很坚强，跌倒了可以很快就爬起来。原来，这一切都是自己对自己撒下的谎言。这么久都一直选择逃避。假装的坚强变成了倔强，然觉得自己真的很傻，不懂得疼爱自己。

或许是时候该学习放手，坦然地面对事实，才能变得真正的坚强。

a song to share

J Rice - Thank You For The Broken Heart

Everything I know about love I learned from you, from you
And everything I know about pain I learned from you, from you
You were my only, You were my first
You showed me lonely, and you took me in when I was hurt
But the most important thing you ever gave me,
You was the one that hurt the most

So thank you for the broken heart, oh yeah
And thank you for the permanent scar
Cause if it wasn't for you
I might forget, how it feels to let go
And how it feels to get a brand new start
So thank you for the broken heart

I still remember when you called
and said that he didn't mean anything
How could you expect me to look at you the same way
You were my only but not my last
You showed me lonely, and you made me put you in the past
The most important thing you ever gave me was the one that hurt the most

So thank you for the broken heart, oh yeah
And thank you for the permanent scar
Cause if it wasn't for you
I might forget, how it feels to let go
And how it feels to get a brand new start
So thank you for the broken heart

And everytime I find myself alone in pieces
I find myself I'll just remember when you hurt me and I made it

So thankyou for the broken heart
And thankyou for the permanent scar
Cause if it wasn't for you
I wouldn't be here, With the love of my life all my pain disappeared
I've come so far
So thankyou for the broken heart
I thank you, I thank you
For the broken heart
Broken heart
My broken heart..

i feel sad i feel down and i know exactly what causes that. 

*sigh*

i feel so helpless.

kuching

arrived at kuching safely at nine yesterday night. thought of the things that ought to be done in this holiday. some made me smiled and some made me sighed. perhaps, i should learn to take up the responsibilities. i am going to be twenty next year though. 

To do list:

• community service
• university personal statement
• read Mansfield Park
• read Super Freakonomics
• kompia
• kampua
• meet with my long lost friends ^-^
• economics essays
• english essay 
• hair cut 
• change my driving license