理想 。 追夢

聽著徐歌陽的《追夢赤子心》感觸良多,因爲我有夢,卻差點兒放棄了追尋。此歌歌詞字字穿射我心扉,因我差點兒成了歌中的懦夫。感謝上帝給我勇氣,還是硬著頭皮、否定了自己悲觀絕望的情緒,沒有放棄,全因有了上帝的的應許。

我要用力活著,不與失敗妥協。
有天我會發芽!


《追夢赤子心》
充满鲜花的世界到底在哪里
如果它真的存在那么我一定会去
我想在那里最高的山峰矗立
不在乎它是不是悬崖峭

用力活着用力爱哪怕肝脑涂地
不求任何人满意只要对得起自己
关于理想我从来没选择放弃
即使在灰头土脸的日子里

也许我没有天分 但我有梦的天真
我将会去证明用我的一生
也许我手比脚笨 但我愿不停探寻
付出所有的青春不留遗憾

向前跑 迎着冷眼和嘲笑
生命的广阔不历经磨难怎能感到
命运它无法让我们跪地求饶
就算鲜血洒满了怀抱

继续跑 带着赤子的骄傲
生命的闪耀不历经磨难怎能看到
与其苟延残喘不如纵情燃烧吧
有一天会再发芽

失败后郁郁寡欢
那是懦夫的表现
只要一息尚存请握紧双拳

在天色破晓之前
我们要更加勇敢
等待日出时最耀眼的瞬间

向前跑 迎着冷眼和嘲笑
生命的广阔不历经磨难怎能感到
命运它无法让我们跪地求饶
就算鲜血洒满了怀抱

继续跑 带着赤子的骄傲
生命的闪耀不坚持到底怎能看到
与其苟延残喘不如纵情燃烧吧
有一天会再发芽
不妥协直到变老

短暫 | 邂逅

那次短暫的邂逅
讓心再次蘇醒
可惜還未有可能
就已結局揭曉

平行綫上的二人
距離多近多遠
始終沒有交叉點
衹能埋在心裏

短暫的甜蜜邂逅
如此畫下句點
是一經歷和回憶
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Having Hope

I did not run away
and I will not,
because He has come to rescue.


Take courage, He said.
Hold onto your hope
as your triumph unfolds.

Choice

If I have a choice,
I'd run away
to a place where no one knows.

Start all over.
Start from scratch again.

Wonder God is Wonderful!

Through it all, I can never testify enough that God indeed does wondrous things! He has not given me any chance to testify the negatives because He has been so good to me - providing for me in so many ways and so abundantly. By this, I mean even down to the smallest details of my life. Like seriously. Though some of the happenings seemed as if they were merely coincidences, I knew for sure it's God at work.

How would I know?

I pray short prayers everyday, e.g. "Lord, let Your favour go before me, go with me and be my rearguard", "Lord, release your angels to reserve a parking lot for me", "Jesus, help me! I don't know how to do my assignments", "Guide me, Lord",  "God... *cry*", etc. Some sound so silly that I doubt God would listen. Nevertheless, He did!

To sidetrack a little, many spiritual leaders give an impression that our prayers should be all formal and proper, with lots of jargons and bombastic words. But I tell you, short prayers are powerful too! Praying the Scriptures is powerful! And in fact, the most powerful is knowing and praying the will and heart of God! How often have we missed out on that?

Back to my short prayers. Though they are short, God knows exactly what I needed, even when I didn't know what I needed at times, no, most of the times. He orchestrates them so subtly that very often after the events, I would suddenly be like, "AH! That really helped me!" I have had countless epiphany moments like those.

For example, this morning, after having tutorial with my own lecturer, I was lingering around chatting with friends, listening to others having their tutorials. When we're about to go to lunch after my friend had finished her tutorial with another lecturer, she was like, "That lecturer really helped me a lot. You guys should try asking him to tutor you too!" I was in doubt and ready to dismiss the suggestion because it's already quite late and the tutor was preparing to go for lunch. Suddenly, I have the if-not-now-when kind of feeling. I prayed my short prayer silently and went over to the lecturer. He agreed to listen to me after lunch though it looked kinda obvious that he was already tired and prepared to head home after lunch. (Thank God!) To make the long story short, if I have not satisfied that go-now! feeling, I'd have lose out on that good piece of advice that would greatly refine my design.

The prayers above are only for my personal gain, and they already did miracles. Imagine if those are for causes on a larger scale, what would happen? And to add on, whatever the Holy Spirit prompts you to do, favour follows. He will not set you up for failure. :)


Success upon success!

Late Night Mumbling

Even after the heat has gone down, I'm still in love with this song and the movie: 


田馥甄
小幸運

電影 我的少女時代 主題曲


我聽見雨滴 落在青青草地
我聽見遠方 下課鐘聲響起
可是我沒有聽見你的聲音 認真呼喚我姓名

愛上你的時候 還不懂感情
離別了 才覺得刻骨銘心
為什麼沒有發現 遇見了你 是生命最好的事情

也許當時忙著微笑和哭泣
忙著追逐天空中的流星
人理所當然的忘記
是誰風裡 雨裡 一直默默守護在原地

原來你是 我最想留住的幸運
原來我們 和愛情曾經靠得那麼近
那為我對抗世界的決定 那陪我淋的雨
一幕幕都是你 一塵不染的真心

與你相遇 好幸運
可我已失去 為你淚流滿面的權利
但願在我看不到的天際 你張開了雙翼
遇見你的註定 她會有多幸運

青春是段跌跌撞撞的旅行
擁有著後知後覺的美麗
來不及感謝 是你給我勇氣 讓我能做回我自己

也許當時忙著微笑和哭泣
忙著追逐天空中的流星
人理所當然的忘記
是誰風裡 雨裡 一直默默守護在原地

原來你是 我最想留住的幸運
原來我們 和愛情曾經靠得那麼近
那為我對抗世界的決定 那陪我淋的雨
一幕幕都是你 一塵不染的真心

與你相遇 好幸運
可我已失去為你淚流滿面的權利
但願在我看不到的天際 你張開了雙翼
遇見你的註定
她會有多幸運


Too often when I'm watching movie/anime, I wonder why is my school life so dull and all - without all these drama, romance and excitement. Wouldn't it be nice to have such memories? I mean, even though it might not be dreams come through, at least you've worked hard for something/someone, really passionate about something/someone, impacted lives, and say and do what you should have said and done. However, I'm still thankful for the people that I have met, things that I've done with them and the innocence that we've shared. Those are what make me who I am today. Perhaps, sometimes I just wish that I've made more efforts in nurturing the relationships, to have really close friends. This line of lyric particularly speaks to me, 
也許當時忙著微笑和哭泣,忙著追逐天空中的流星,人理所當然的忘記 是誰風裡 雨裡 一直默默守護在原地。
It says, people often forget and take for granted those who silently/secretly protecting them when they are busy chasing dreams or enjoying life. What a sad truth to learn! I like what John C. Maxwell always promotes, intentional living. We have be taking for granted so many things, we thought we will learn many things naturally. However, as the matter of fact, that is not true at all. Even the most basic actions such as baby eating on their own, walking, making friends and managing emotions, are acquired intentionally, whether or not we realise it. They don't come naturally. This is also what I've been trying to practice - to be intentional. I forget sometimes, so I have to keep reminding myself until it becomes a habit. To be honest, it is not easy but it will happen. And it certainly makes me happier. :目

Ohhkkayyy. Back to work. Till I write again, Readers. 

Growing Up

Re-watched some of the Studio Ghibli's movies recently. It fascinates me that the way I think and feel changed so much over the years. Even though some remained the same, many things that I couldn't comprehend or empathise in the past started to make sense now. I couldn't tell when my train of thoughts evolved, but I know for certain they are no longer the same.

Constructive Mind

I am really thankful for one of my lecturers.

I was worried that he would show disappointment or become angry at me because of my work progresses, thus was reluctant to attend his tutorial. Yet God reminded me that all I have to do is to give my best in everything, and not to let other people's opinions about me become a burden that stumble me. (Yes, I'm working on my self-confidence currently, but not one in my own abilities but what God can and is doing through me. I'm not letting Mr. S.A. Tan rip me of my identity in Christ anymore! >:) ) So, there, I took up my courage and went. As I walked, I was like, "Lord, let Your favour come upon me!"

Surprisingly, this lecturer is nothing like the other lecturers that I have had before. He was so encouraging and full of grace, and he didn't belittle any of his students in his actions, words, behaviours and gestures. He told me and friend story about one of his students who succeeded by going extra miles, even though she was without design flair. It is the attitude in handling the assignments that matters. Of course, he told us more than that! Everything just kept building me up and gave me more motivation and inspiration. This is the kind of teacher I want to be, not necessary in education industry though. Hehehe!

Thank you, Mr. Vickram. You inspire me :)

I'm fully charged and ready to take on whatever that is left. I'm finishing this race triumphantly because God in me is able and He enables me. He is my hope and my future.

Speaking about hope, the enemy would always use worldly circumstances to dishearten us and to crush our hope because without hope, we parish, we cease to operate in faith and love. So it's vital to look beyond the worldly conditions and into the spiritual realms - Christ has overcame all!


Victory belongs to the Lord! 

An Honest Confession

I am proud to announce that I'm graduating real soon as an Interior Architect. Yay... It's a lie. Well, I do look forward to finishing the course asap but for the time being, I feel extremely stressful and overwhelmed I just feel like quitting.

I had anxiety issue when I was younger and it was part of the reasons I was unable to perform during the most important occasions. I would be so restless and worried that nothing could actually penetrate  my mind. I would be so trembled in fear, as if my sanity is being torn apart. I had it dealt with a few years ago and since then nothing was too stressful to overcome. 

However, it seems like there are still some fragments here and there. They unknowingly accumulate and grow in the deepest part of my mind. Recently, whenever I felt threatened by the situations, I wanted to just withdraw and disappear. I almost broke down in several incidences. I was having creativity block and constantly feeling fatigue and worn out, as if the fire of life is being put out. There was not a thing I felt excited or passionate about. I didn't want to face any of it. Later, it somehow occurred to me that these are all too familiar, like something that I have had for a long time but forgotten or buried, yet different. 

There were so much confusions and distress but God! He is a God who is close to the brokenhearted and crushed in the spirit (Psalm 34:18). He gave me revelation of the time and seasons in my life, and it propelled me to move forward and not give up. He showed me that it is exactly because I am entering a major transition period that He is allowing this "anxiety attack" so that I can deal with it completely and wrap up the last seasons properly before entering a whole new season. Even as I'm typing this article out, God is revealing new things about me to myself and I am grateful for that. I am so thankful that amidst all these trials and misery, I chose to cling on to Him. Oh... Of course along the way unconsciously I grumbled against Him, had my volcanos erupted, cried, retaliated, etc. but God always knew when to speak to me, show me things and words, to encourage me and to lift me up effectively. He is gracious to allow all those outbursts without forsaking me because He is a God who does not define me by what I did and do, but by who I am in Christ. For me, I guess, maturity comes through experiences like these sometimes. I have learned to control my emotions better over the past weeks, at least good enough to not cause troubles to people around me. 

What I wanted to say is that, upon entering and during transitions, things get messed up but it's alright. I am still fighting anxiety, trying to close the "door" and demolish it, but it's a process that I have to go through to develop what is required in me and of me to achieve my destiny. And for that to succeed, I have to learn to focus on God and not concern myself with how others may think, as well as the pace that I'm moving at. "One step at a time," He says, "it doesn't matter if it's just baby steps, one step at a time will bring you further than you can imagine, further than when you're rushing outside of My timing for you. Just one step at a time." Acceleration comes naturally when one has learned to walk steadily and punctually. 

I have decided to write this because I want anyone reading this to know that though people seldom talk about it, you are never alone in this. I don't want to tell people how it is when it's over. I want to walk them through it together. I can do it because God is my strength and my stronghold. I really thank God, the Jehovah Jireh, for providing spiritual advices, supports and guidances through revelations, family and friends, and spiritual leaders.

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I am an overcoming bride of Christ. 

Online Shopping Malaysia - Sit Back and Buy!

Being an Interior Architecture student, very often I was so overloaded with all the assignments that I would rather stay at home and rest instead of going to shopping malls. And for the last semester, I was so busy I couldn't shop for new clothes for the coming Chinese New Year before I went back to my hometown. My hometown is a great place for food, but beautiful, suitable clothes are hard to find and honestly speaking, they are frequently overpriced due to market demand. 

But fret not! With the current technological advancement, shopping is made possible with just a click away! There are plenty of online shopping Malaysia websites which have been setup from fashion, gadgets and electronics as well as groceries. Personally, I have tried online shopping in various websites several times. So far all the products arrived safely. Some were as good as promised and some even exceeded my expectations. However, I did encounter several problems such as postage delays, unfriendly sellers and differences in product quality. Hence, it is always necessary to take some safety precautions to avoid  getting cheated or receiving less than paid for. Below are some tips to stay safe and satisfied while making any purchase online: 

It's a tricky world out there. Don't trust all the websites. Don't let your impulse guide you. Always do some research regarding the websites prior to buying from them. I always read reviews online and get feedbacks from my friends to make sure the website is a credible one as there are many websites that are scams. If possible, I would even chat with the sellers/suppliers to get more information on the goods I'm interested in. Shopping at the wrong website or untrusted suppliers will make you lose your money big time and you will have a trauma to shop online.


Many would agree that online shopping is convenient but refuse or hesitate to try it themselves for the fear of the security of online transaction. I was once one of them. Therefore, before keying in bank details to purchase anything, it is important to always make sure a symbol like lock is on the top url or bottom of the page. This indicates that the website is secure for you to start making payment. This is the most vital part of all as with the wrong move or ignorance, you can have your bank account drained out. You do not want to regret shopping due to your mistake of not checking it properly. The best way is to always refer back to the review you have read and social platforms.


After making any purchase online, another important step is to check your bank statements especially if you opt for bank transfer, debit or credit card payment methods. You do not need to wait for your bills to come at the end of the month as it will be too late if something bad happens. Go online regularly and check your electronic bank statements to confirm that you are not being robbed. After all, better be safe than sorry.

Be safe and enjoy shopping from home, Readers! I'm going to shop for mine soon. Yay!

Have a blessed new year! :)