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理想 。 追夢

聽著徐歌陽的《追夢赤子心》感觸良多,因爲我有夢,卻差點兒放棄了追尋。此歌歌詞字字穿射我心扉,因我差點兒成了歌中的懦夫。感謝上帝給我勇氣,還是硬著頭皮、否定了自己悲觀絕望的情緒,沒有放棄,全因有了上帝的的應許。

我要用力活著,不與失敗妥協。
有天我會發芽!


《追夢赤子心》
充满鲜花的世界到底在哪里
如果它真的存在那么我一定会去
我想在那里最高的山峰矗立
不在乎它是不是悬崖峭

用力活着用力爱哪怕肝脑涂地
不求任何人满意只要对得起自己
关于理想我从来没选择放弃
即使在灰头土脸的日子里

也许我没有天分 但我有梦的天真
我将会去证明用我的一生
也许我手比脚笨 但我愿不停探寻
付出所有的青春不留遗憾

向前跑 迎着冷眼和嘲笑
生命的广阔不历经磨难怎能感到
命运它无法让我们跪地求饶
就算鲜血洒满了怀抱

继续跑 带着赤子的骄傲
生命的闪耀不历经磨难怎能看到
与其苟延残喘不如纵情燃烧吧
有一天会再发芽

失败后郁郁寡欢
那是懦夫的表现
只要一息尚存请握紧双拳

在天色破晓之前
我们要更加勇敢
等待日出时最耀眼的瞬间

向前跑 迎着冷眼和嘲笑
生命的广阔不历经磨难怎能感到
命运它无法让我们跪地求饶
就算鲜血洒满了怀抱

继续跑 带着赤子的骄傲
生命的闪耀不坚持到底怎能看到
与其苟延残喘不如纵情燃烧吧
有一天会再发芽
不妥协直到变老

短暫 | 邂逅

那次短暫的邂逅
讓心再次蘇醒
可惜還未有可能
就已結局揭曉

平行綫上的二人
距離多近多遠
始終沒有交叉點
衹能埋在心裏

短暫的甜蜜邂逅
如此畫下句點
是一經歷和回憶
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無需張揚

:')

Having Hope

I did not run away
and I will not,
because He has come to rescue.


Take courage, He said.
Hold onto your hope
as your triumph unfolds.

Choice

If I have a choice,
I'd run away
to a place where no one knows.

Start all over.
Start from scratch again.

Wonder God is Wonderful!

Through it all, I can never testify enough that God indeed does wondrous things! He has not given me any chance to testify the negatives because He has been so good to me - providing for me in so many ways and so abundantly. By this, I mean even down to the smallest details of my life. Like seriously. Though some of the happenings seemed as if they were merely coincidences, I knew for sure it's God at work.

How would I know?

I pray short prayers everyday, e.g. "Lord, let Your favour go before me, go with me and be my rearguard", "Lord, release your angels to reserve a parking lot for me", "Jesus, help me! I don't know how to do my assignments", "Guide me, Lord",  "God... *cry*", etc. Some sound so silly that I doubt God would listen. Nevertheless, He did!

To sidetrack a little, many spiritual leaders give an impression that our prayers should be all formal and proper, with lots of jargons and bombastic words. But I tell you, short prayers are powerful too! Praying the Scriptures is powerful! And in fact, the most powerful is knowing and praying the will and heart of God! How often have we missed out on that?

Back to my short prayers. Though they are short, God knows exactly what I needed, even when I didn't know what I needed at times, no, most of the times. He orchestrates them so subtly that very often after the events, I would suddenly be like, "AH! That really helped me!" I have had countless epiphany moments like those.

For example, this morning, after having tutorial with my own lecturer, I was lingering around chatting with friends, listening to others having their tutorials. When we're about to go to lunch after my friend had finished her tutorial with another lecturer, she was like, "That lecturer really helped me a lot. You guys should try asking him to tutor you too!" I was in doubt and ready to dismiss the suggestion because it's already quite late and the tutor was preparing to go for lunch. Suddenly, I have the if-not-now-when kind of feeling. I prayed my short prayer silently and went over to the lecturer. He agreed to listen to me after lunch though it looked kinda obvious that he was already tired and prepared to head home after lunch. (Thank God!) To make the long story short, if I have not satisfied that go-now! feeling, I'd have lose out on that good piece of advice that would greatly refine my design.

The prayers above are only for my personal gain, and they already did miracles. Imagine if those are for causes on a larger scale, what would happen? And to add on, whatever the Holy Spirit prompts you to do, favour follows. He will not set you up for failure. :)


Success upon success!

Late Night Mumbling

Even after the heat has gone down, I'm still in love with this song and the movie: 


田馥甄
小幸運

電影 我的少女時代 主題曲


我聽見雨滴 落在青青草地
我聽見遠方 下課鐘聲響起
可是我沒有聽見你的聲音 認真呼喚我姓名

愛上你的時候 還不懂感情
離別了 才覺得刻骨銘心
為什麼沒有發現 遇見了你 是生命最好的事情

也許當時忙著微笑和哭泣
忙著追逐天空中的流星
人理所當然的忘記
是誰風裡 雨裡 一直默默守護在原地

原來你是 我最想留住的幸運
原來我們 和愛情曾經靠得那麼近
那為我對抗世界的決定 那陪我淋的雨
一幕幕都是你 一塵不染的真心

與你相遇 好幸運
可我已失去 為你淚流滿面的權利
但願在我看不到的天際 你張開了雙翼
遇見你的註定 她會有多幸運

青春是段跌跌撞撞的旅行
擁有著後知後覺的美麗
來不及感謝 是你給我勇氣 讓我能做回我自己

也許當時忙著微笑和哭泣
忙著追逐天空中的流星
人理所當然的忘記
是誰風裡 雨裡 一直默默守護在原地

原來你是 我最想留住的幸運
原來我們 和愛情曾經靠得那麼近
那為我對抗世界的決定 那陪我淋的雨
一幕幕都是你 一塵不染的真心

與你相遇 好幸運
可我已失去為你淚流滿面的權利
但願在我看不到的天際 你張開了雙翼
遇見你的註定
她會有多幸運


Too often when I'm watching movie/anime, I wonder why is my school life so dull and all - without all these drama, romance and excitement. Wouldn't it be nice to have such memories? I mean, even though it might not be dreams come through, at least you've worked hard for something/someone, really passionate about something/someone, impacted lives, and say and do what you should have said and done. However, I'm still thankful for the people that I have met, things that I've done with them and the innocence that we've shared. Those are what make me who I am today. Perhaps, sometimes I just wish that I've made more efforts in nurturing the relationships, to have really close friends. This line of lyric particularly speaks to me, 
也許當時忙著微笑和哭泣,忙著追逐天空中的流星,人理所當然的忘記 是誰風裡 雨裡 一直默默守護在原地。
It says, people often forget and take for granted those who silently/secretly protecting them when they are busy chasing dreams or enjoying life. What a sad truth to learn! I like what John C. Maxwell always promotes, intentional living. We have be taking for granted so many things, we thought we will learn many things naturally. However, as the matter of fact, that is not true at all. Even the most basic actions such as baby eating on their own, walking, making friends and managing emotions, are acquired intentionally, whether or not we realise it. They don't come naturally. This is also what I've been trying to practice - to be intentional. I forget sometimes, so I have to keep reminding myself until it becomes a habit. To be honest, it is not easy but it will happen. And it certainly makes me happier. :目

Ohhkkayyy. Back to work. Till I write again, Readers. 

Growing Up

Re-watched some of the Studio Ghibli's movies recently. It fascinates me that the way I think and feel changed so much over the years. Even though some remained the same, many things that I couldn't comprehend or empathise in the past started to make sense now. I couldn't tell when my train of thoughts evolved, but I know for certain they are no longer the same.

Constructive Mind

I am really thankful for one of my lecturers.

I was worried that he would show disappointment or become angry at me because of my work progresses, thus was reluctant to attend his tutorial. Yet God reminded me that all I have to do is to give my best in everything, and not to let other people's opinions about me become a burden that stumble me. (Yes, I'm working on my self-confidence currently, but not one in my own abilities but what God can and is doing through me. I'm not letting Mr. S.A. Tan rip me of my identity in Christ anymore! >:) ) So, there, I took up my courage and went. As I walked, I was like, "Lord, let Your favour come upon me!"

Surprisingly, this lecturer is nothing like the other lecturers that I have had before. He was so encouraging and full of grace, and he didn't belittle any of his students in his actions, words, behaviours and gestures. He told me and friend story about one of his students who succeeded by going extra miles, even though she was without design flair. It is the attitude in handling the assignments that matters. Of course, he told us more than that! Everything just kept building me up and gave me more motivation and inspiration. This is the kind of teacher I want to be, not necessary in education industry though. Hehehe!

Thank you, Mr. Vickram. You inspire me :)

I'm fully charged and ready to take on whatever that is left. I'm finishing this race triumphantly because God in me is able and He enables me. He is my hope and my future.

Speaking about hope, the enemy would always use worldly circumstances to dishearten us and to crush our hope because without hope, we parish, we cease to operate in faith and love. So it's vital to look beyond the worldly conditions and into the spiritual realms - Christ has overcame all!


Victory belongs to the Lord! 

An Honest Confession

I am proud to announce that I'm graduating real soon as an Interior Architect. Yay... It's a lie. Well, I do look forward to finishing the course asap but for the time being, I feel extremely stressful and overwhelmed I just feel like quitting.

I had anxiety issue when I was younger and it was part of the reasons I was unable to perform during the most important occasions. I would be so restless and worried that nothing could actually penetrate  my mind. I would be so trembled in fear, as if my sanity is being torn apart. I had it dealt with a few years ago and since then nothing was too stressful to overcome. 

However, it seems like there are still some fragments here and there. They unknowingly accumulate and grow in the deepest part of my mind. Recently, whenever I felt threatened by the situations, I wanted to just withdraw and disappear. I almost broke down in several incidences. I was having creativity block and constantly feeling fatigue and worn out, as if the fire of life is being put out. There was not a thing I felt excited or passionate about. I didn't want to face any of it. Later, it somehow occurred to me that these are all too familiar, like something that I have had for a long time but forgotten or buried, yet different. 

There were so much confusions and distress but God! He is a God who is close to the brokenhearted and crushed in the spirit (Psalm 34:18). He gave me revelation of the time and seasons in my life, and it propelled me to move forward and not give up. He showed me that it is exactly because I am entering a major transition period that He is allowing this "anxiety attack" so that I can deal with it completely and wrap up the last seasons properly before entering a whole new season. Even as I'm typing this article out, God is revealing new things about me to myself and I am grateful for that. I am so thankful that amidst all these trials and misery, I chose to cling on to Him. Oh... Of course along the way unconsciously I grumbled against Him, had my volcanos erupted, cried, retaliated, etc. but God always knew when to speak to me, show me things and words, to encourage me and to lift me up effectively. He is gracious to allow all those outbursts without forsaking me because He is a God who does not define me by what I did and do, but by who I am in Christ. For me, I guess, maturity comes through experiences like these sometimes. I have learned to control my emotions better over the past weeks, at least good enough to not cause troubles to people around me. 

What I wanted to say is that, upon entering and during transitions, things get messed up but it's alright. I am still fighting anxiety, trying to close the "door" and demolish it, but it's a process that I have to go through to develop what is required in me and of me to achieve my destiny. And for that to succeed, I have to learn to focus on God and not concern myself with how others may think, as well as the pace that I'm moving at. "One step at a time," He says, "it doesn't matter if it's just baby steps, one step at a time will bring you further than you can imagine, further than when you're rushing outside of My timing for you. Just one step at a time." Acceleration comes naturally when one has learned to walk steadily and punctually. 

I have decided to write this because I want anyone reading this to know that though people seldom talk about it, you are never alone in this. I don't want to tell people how it is when it's over. I want to walk them through it together. I can do it because God is my strength and my stronghold. I really thank God, the Jehovah Jireh, for providing spiritual advices, supports and guidances through revelations, family and friends, and spiritual leaders.

https://lancewallnau.com

I am an overcoming bride of Christ. 

So Much More Than That

I do not want to live a life that starting from Monday I am already looking forward to Friday night. God intended my life to be so much more interesting than that because He promised that the best is yet ahead.

Work is a form of worship in itself. I want to give my best to Him and I want to enjoy worshipping Him every single day - not just attending church on Sunday. Worship is so much more than that.


A great song from Need to Breathe to motivate you and to remind you to keep your eyes wide open - to the possibilities and suddenness in lives. God is a God of Creativity who can make the what-seems-to-be-impossible in human eyes possible. He is full of possibilities.

An Interesting Friend

I left my laptop in class yesterday - after opened all the tabs to my final report but decided I'd rather socialise and rest than typing report. When I came back, my friend so kindly helped me with my "report".

Following is what he has typed:


Salvation to Revelation - A Testimony In Life
As a child living in the city for most of my life, I have come to realise many things that may seem boring to the average man, but poses a significance to my personal development as a whole. This report is a summary of the life experiences and lessons that I have encountered throughout my life as a children of Earth.


From Day One
One fine morning in the month of February in the year 1991, was the start of life for a curious and soon to be perfectionist. The world has yet to discover what’s installed in the future of it’s well-being. Born in the outskirts of a tropical country in the Southeast-asian region, infused with immense-heat resisting skin; and the tolerance of the near-extinct hornbills of the country’s jewels, a legend was starting to learn to roam this land…


Rebel to Bible
Living in an environment with mostly incense and idols for almost the entity of my current life, it was a funny story of how I met with the Lord. One fine Sunday morning, as I was practicing my daily routine of gardening in my household garden, my neighbour; Madam Kwan, suddenly was in a friendly mood, and we began to converse also immediately. She was talking about how we were neighbours but rarely do we organise neighbourhood activities that bring the community together, so she suggested that we can be the pioneers to change; be the leader in democracy; bring the community closer and united as a whole! This idea was highly inviting, but I rather pluck weeds attacking the bougainvilleas then be part of this ‘revolution’. Sorry, Madam Kwan.


Slowly But Surely
As days;weeks;months past by, I still continued on with my mundane routine of gardening and relaxing my day off before one day realising that there must be something more than just grass and worms in the world we live in, then the vision of community building suddenly came to mind, Madam Kwan.


Out of The ‘Comfort Zone’
Being the introvert-born that I am, I finally picked up courage to go up to Madam Kwan’s house and ring her doorbell to strike up a conversation with her. Just so happen it happens to be her Church’s Cell-Group meeting, despite that, she invited me in with open arms and introduced everyone of her cell-mates to me with an open heart and friendly smile. Then she started to explain what a cell-group meeting is, and how it relates to community building at a neighbourhood level.


The Transformation
From that day on, I’ve started to come for regular gatherings (cell-groups) at Madam Kwan’s. We normally start of with some jolly songs before every meeting and some of the songs were quite fun and catchy once you get the hang of it. We would normally have an ice-breaking session to foster the relationships between the people present and also talk about issues that concern us in the community we live in. I found this rather interesting and much more meaningful than plucking weeds during my spare time and I decided to invest more time into this activity. Occasionally they(the other cell-group members) would also discuss verses in the BIBLE(Basic Information Before Leaving Earth) and they would all discuss and interpret the issues in relation to the social context that we are living in; and surprisingly the solutions are also provided in this magical book (Bible) and the answer was very simple, Love one another.


Reaching Out
As a former weed-puller professional most of my life, I have finally found something worth sharing to others, ‘the Abundant Grace and Love that the Lord has given us’. The sheer excitement of sharing the gospel to others was overwhelming and also exciting at the same time! But nothing is really as simple as it seems, although the Gospel has worked wonders on me, but I have to also acknowledge the diversity of the population and understand that everyone has his/her own purpose in life and although the Gospel is for all to hear, but not all to understand.


Family and Friends
Accepting the Lord as my personal Lord and savior maybe a revelation in my life, but the views of the family may differ… Peer pressure from friends is also an underlying issue in the influence on my mental and physical life with people of the community and also colleagues. Cultural norms of the Chinese friends that I’m close with always have a habit of bashing themselves up, not sure whether to boost one’s self-esteem or just plain  negative mindsets. This phenomenon has erupted a fiery encouragement inside of me that must be shared and laid out on the table for all to see.


THEY NEED JESUS!


Amen.

-Anonymous


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Amazing, isn't he?
Oh well, I'm always grateful for him being one of the first few friends I met in university.

Cheers.

Note to Myself

Sometimes I just have to keep reminding myself,
Keep it neutral, babe!
We'll see how it goes.

Ah My Dream

Reminds me of my dream to watch Broadway musical live one day.


Ah my love,
One day,
Some day,
I'll make it. 


What a beautiful song!

It's the Matter of Perception

God knows what kind of words you need to hear to spark the dying fire in you
so He will use all methods to channel them to you.
You can choose to take it positively or negatively.
Your choice, determines it all - for God has bought you freedom on the cross.
He will never force you into something you don't want. 
If not, that would simply mean slavery, and that's ironic.


....


A song for you
Tell Your Heart to Beat Again

And yes, there is hope in Him who has it all.  

仍是感恩

很多时候累了就想逃离现实
想让脑袋思绪随意放荡
想去找寻不一样的风景
想外出去轻松大吃一番



很多时候就是要咬紧牙根继续前进不懈
若每次都放纵自己放弃逃离现场
压根儿就等于放弃成长成功的机会
更不能体验到辛苦后的甘甜


很多时候很多人和事物都不断提醒着自己
上帝的恩典够我用
上帝的应许不变
上帝是信实是公义
昨日今日直到永远
他点头的没有人能从身旁掠夺
除非自己愿意准许谦让权利


很多时候只要从上帝的眼睛看世界
用他的心去感应周遭情感
定眼注目着自己的目标
只要清楚知道为谁为什
其实没有什么是不可能的
累了依旧有个永不能被饮尽的泉水
时时充实着自己冲洗一切疲劳


这是一场已经打赢了的战
我不惧怕   我不畏缩   我不放弃


这一战   胜利在我!

很兴奋!

不知不觉已经长大了,
身旁的友人都纷纷不是订婚就是结婚了!
看着他们的结婚照我很是兴奋!
真是可喜可贺啊!
多希望能够参加他们的婚礼见证他们的誓言!


上帝的祝福满满!

小小幸福累积后就是大大幸福!

有一群比较要好的朋友是看似简单却来得不易的幸福。
珍惜!

想家

虽然都没有什么会想家,
但偶尔还是会想回家,
看看爸爸妈妈和哥哥(现在和姐姐一起住),
一家团聚真的让我很想念。

有时会羡慕其他朋友会对家人说“我爱你”,
自己却不敢因一往而来都是这么样一个儿的,
口里不说但心头儿对他们满满都是爱
但愿他们都晓得也感受得到。

Photography

Determined to master photography skills
so I can record every moments (of myself and the others)
to share with the rest of the world.
Photography speaks of things you cannot visualise
if taken through the right angle, perspectives, etc.
I want to master the skills
so no matter what kind of camera I'm using
I can still capture the quality of the photographs I wanted.

爱要及时。

看见她的诞生,
才惊觉时间已悄然流逝。

何时起,
忙碌的课业掠夺了关注亲朋好友的时间?

何时起,
重要的人和事物已不再重要?

勿待事业稳重才哑然发现爱人发已成灰白。
勿待目标达成才后知后觉关心的机会已所剩无几。
若待噩耗传耳才撕心裂肺后悔也已万事无补。


刚巧听见这首歌,觉得很贴切。
“时间都去哪了?”

  趁现在。