Take a chance. It is awfully scary and risky but it leads to (new) hope and miracles.
Don't be enslaved by the failures of the past.
Be FREE to dream and move on, even if it means to start from square one.
God be my helper.
Date the Girl.
I came across this very interesting article while I was browsing tumblr. =)
Disclaimer: The following article is copied and pasted from a random Tumblr I have browsed.
Disclaimer: The following article is copied and pasted from a random Tumblr I have browsed.
Date a girl who reads. Date a girl who spends her money on books instead of clothes, who has problems with closet space because she has too many books. Date a girl who has a list of books she wants to read, who has had a library card since she was twelve.
Find a girl who reads. You’ll know that she does because she will always have an unread book in her bag. She’s the one lovingly looking over the shelves in the bookstore, the one who quietly cries out when she has found the book she wants. You see that weird chick sniffing the pages of an old book in a secondhand book shop? That’s the reader. They can never resist smelling the pages, especially when they are yellow and worn.
She’s the girl reading while waiting in that coffee shop down the street. If you take a peek at her mug, the non-dairy creamer is floating on top because she’s kind of engrossed already. Lost in a world of the author’s making. Sit down. She might give you a glare, as most girls who read do not like to be interrupted. Ask her if she likes the book.
Buy her another cup of coffee.
Let her know what you really think of Murakami. See if she got through the first chapter of Fellowship. Understand that if she says she understood James Joyce’s Ulysses she’s just saying that to sound intelligent. Ask her if she loves Alice or she would like to be Alice.
It’s easy to date a girl who reads. Give her books for her birthday, for Christmas, for anniversaries. Give her the gift of words, in poetry and in song. Give her Neruda, Pound, Sexton, Cummings. Let her know that you understand that words are love. Understand that she knows the difference between books and reality but by god, she’s going to try to make her life a little like her favorite book. It will never be your fault if she does.
She has to give it a shot somehow.
Lie to her. If she understands syntax, she will understand your need to lie. Behind words are other things: motivation, value, nuance, dialogue. It will not be the end of the world.
Fail her. Because a girl who reads knows that failure always leads up to the climax. Because girls who read understand that all things must come to end, but that you can always write a sequel. That you can begin again and again and still be the hero. That life is meant to have a villain or two.
Why be frightened of everything that you are not? Girls who read understand that people, like characters, develop. Except in the Twilight series.
If you find a girl who reads, keep her close. When you find her up at 2 AM clutching a book to her chest and weeping, make her a cup of tea and hold her. You may lose her for a couple of hours but she will always come back to you. She’ll talk as if the characters in the book are real, because for a while, they always are.
You will propose on a hot air balloon. Or during a rock concert. Or very casually next time she’s sick. Over Skype.
You will smile so hard you will wonder why your heart hasn’t burst and bled out all over your chest yet. You will write the story of your lives, have kids with strange names and even stranger tastes. She will introduce your children to the Cat in the Hat and Aslan, maybe in the same day. You will walk the winters of your old age together and she will recite Keats under her breath while you shake the snow off your boots.
Date a girl who reads because you deserve it. You deserve a girl who can give you the most colorful life imaginable. If you can only give her monotony, and stale hours and half-baked proposals, then you’re better off alone. If you want the world and the worlds beyond it, date a girl who reads.
Or better yet, date a girl who writes.
- Rosemarie Urquico
Find a girl who reads. You’ll know that she does because she will always have an unread book in her bag. She’s the one lovingly looking over the shelves in the bookstore, the one who quietly cries out when she has found the book she wants. You see that weird chick sniffing the pages of an old book in a secondhand book shop? That’s the reader. They can never resist smelling the pages, especially when they are yellow and worn.
She’s the girl reading while waiting in that coffee shop down the street. If you take a peek at her mug, the non-dairy creamer is floating on top because she’s kind of engrossed already. Lost in a world of the author’s making. Sit down. She might give you a glare, as most girls who read do not like to be interrupted. Ask her if she likes the book.
Buy her another cup of coffee.
Let her know what you really think of Murakami. See if she got through the first chapter of Fellowship. Understand that if she says she understood James Joyce’s Ulysses she’s just saying that to sound intelligent. Ask her if she loves Alice or she would like to be Alice.
It’s easy to date a girl who reads. Give her books for her birthday, for Christmas, for anniversaries. Give her the gift of words, in poetry and in song. Give her Neruda, Pound, Sexton, Cummings. Let her know that you understand that words are love. Understand that she knows the difference between books and reality but by god, she’s going to try to make her life a little like her favorite book. It will never be your fault if she does.
She has to give it a shot somehow.
Lie to her. If she understands syntax, she will understand your need to lie. Behind words are other things: motivation, value, nuance, dialogue. It will not be the end of the world.
Fail her. Because a girl who reads knows that failure always leads up to the climax. Because girls who read understand that all things must come to end, but that you can always write a sequel. That you can begin again and again and still be the hero. That life is meant to have a villain or two.
Why be frightened of everything that you are not? Girls who read understand that people, like characters, develop. Except in the Twilight series.
If you find a girl who reads, keep her close. When you find her up at 2 AM clutching a book to her chest and weeping, make her a cup of tea and hold her. You may lose her for a couple of hours but she will always come back to you. She’ll talk as if the characters in the book are real, because for a while, they always are.
You will propose on a hot air balloon. Or during a rock concert. Or very casually next time she’s sick. Over Skype.
You will smile so hard you will wonder why your heart hasn’t burst and bled out all over your chest yet. You will write the story of your lives, have kids with strange names and even stranger tastes. She will introduce your children to the Cat in the Hat and Aslan, maybe in the same day. You will walk the winters of your old age together and she will recite Keats under her breath while you shake the snow off your boots.
Date a girl who reads because you deserve it. You deserve a girl who can give you the most colorful life imaginable. If you can only give her monotony, and stale hours and half-baked proposals, then you’re better off alone. If you want the world and the worlds beyond it, date a girl who reads.
Or better yet, date a girl who writes.
- Rosemarie Urquico
Insignificance.
This is how I feel exactly sometimes.
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“你是你朋友中最失败的一个了。”
无意之中说的一句话却像利剑般刺伤我的心肺。我何尝不想成功呢？只是有时成果未必等于所输进的心血。
Excitement.
The very thought of celebrating coming Chinese New Year and my birthday with my family and close friends sends me to heaven.
I miss you all.
xoxo
And If Only Everything is Within My Reach.
Things would be so much easier. There would be less tortures mentally.
But then, I would be a god myself. I would be furthest away from He who breathes life into my nostril. So, yes. Just let it be. Everything happens for a very specific reason as according to His perfect plan.
But then, I would be a god myself. I would be furthest away from He who breathes life into my nostril. So, yes. Just let it be. Everything happens for a very specific reason as according to His perfect plan.
Trust Him, dear heart.
Invisible.
No one wants to hear your story. They expect you to hear theirs.
But I'm glad my God desires to hear mine.
Breaking Apart.
Give me a sign.
Uncover mine eye to Your plan for me going through all these.
Never have I feel such homesickness. ='(
Stop Pushing!
Suffocated.
I don't know what to do,
but still...
I DON'T WANT TO DO IT YOUR WAY!
Stop imposing your ideas on me.
The Bible.
A young man was getting ready to graduate from college. For many months he had admired a beautiful sports car in a dealer's showroom, and knowing his father could well afford it, he told him that was all he wanted.
As Graduation Day approached, the young man awaited signs that his father had purchased the car. Finally, on the morning of his graduation his father called him into his private study. His father told him how proud he was to have such a fine son, and told him how much he loved him. He handed his son a beautifully wrapped gift box. Curious, but somewhat disappointed the young man opened the box and found a lovely, leather-bound Bible.
Angrily, he raised his voice at his father and said, "With all your money, you give me a Bible?" and stormed out of the house, leaving the holy book.
Many years passed and the young man was very successful in business. He had a beautiful home and wonderful family, but realized his father was very old, and thought perhaps he should go to him.
He had not seen him since that graduation day. Before he could make arrangements, he received a telegram telling him his father had passed away, and willed all of his possessions to his son. He needed to come home immediately and take care of things. When he arrived at his father's house, sudden sadness and regret filled his heart. He began to search his father's important papers and saw the still new Bible, just as he had left it years ago. With tears, he opened the Bible, and began to turn the pages. As he read those words, a car key dropped from an envelope taped behind the Bible. It had a tag with the dealer's name, the same dealer who had the sports car he had desired. On the tag was the date of his graduation, and the words... PAID IN FULL.
How many times do we miss God's blessings because they are not packaged as we expected?
(Disclaimer: Story taken from Grace Ngu.)
As Graduation Day approached, the young man awaited signs that his father had purchased the car. Finally, on the morning of his graduation his father called him into his private study. His father told him how proud he was to have such a fine son, and told him how much he loved him. He handed his son a beautifully wrapped gift box. Curious, but somewhat disappointed the young man opened the box and found a lovely, leather-bound Bible.
Angrily, he raised his voice at his father and said, "With all your money, you give me a Bible?" and stormed out of the house, leaving the holy book.
Many years passed and the young man was very successful in business. He had a beautiful home and wonderful family, but realized his father was very old, and thought perhaps he should go to him.
He had not seen him since that graduation day. Before he could make arrangements, he received a telegram telling him his father had passed away, and willed all of his possessions to his son. He needed to come home immediately and take care of things. When he arrived at his father's house, sudden sadness and regret filled his heart. He began to search his father's important papers and saw the still new Bible, just as he had left it years ago. With tears, he opened the Bible, and began to turn the pages. As he read those words, a car key dropped from an envelope taped behind the Bible. It had a tag with the dealer's name, the same dealer who had the sports car he had desired. On the tag was the date of his graduation, and the words... PAID IN FULL.
How many times do we miss God's blessings because they are not packaged as we expected?
You of little faith, why did you doubt? Matthew 14:31
(Disclaimer: Story taken from Grace Ngu.)
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Do everything without complaining or arguing, so that you may become blameless and pure, children of God without fault in a crooked and depraved generation, in which you shine like stars in the universe as you hold out the word of life - in order that I may boast on the day of Christ that I did not run or labour for nothing.
Philippians 2:14-16
My God Listens.
(Dated 15 October 2011. Delay in publish due to technical problem.)
Things have not been easy and I have not been truly happy ever since I stepped on this land.
But He the I Am who is alive, through songs and scriptures, is constantly telling me that He cares and He is listening to my prayers, every single one of them.
Hope of All Hearts.
Everything is perishable, including all the trials I am facing and the grudges I am holding against the others at this very moment, but You will remain.
Though my heart may fail, with hope and light, You will bring victory out of me.
In darkness, in trial, my soul shall sing of Your mercy and kindness.
For you have taught me to be the light that shines and to never lose my saltiness even in the midst of hopelessness and disappointments.
Never Stop.
Psalm 103
(NIV)
1 Praise the LORD, my soul;
all my inmost being, praise his holy name.
2 Praise the LORD, my soul,
and forget not all his benefits—
3 who forgives all your sins
and heals all your diseases,
4 who redeems your life from the pit
and crowns you with love and compassion,
5 who satisfies your desires with good things
so that your youth is renewed like the eagle’s.
all my inmost being, praise his holy name.
2 Praise the LORD, my soul,
and forget not all his benefits—
3 who forgives all your sins
and heals all your diseases,
4 who redeems your life from the pit
and crowns you with love and compassion,
5 who satisfies your desires with good things
so that your youth is renewed like the eagle’s.
6 The LORD works righteousness
and justice for all the oppressed.
and justice for all the oppressed.
7 He made known his ways to Moses,
his deeds to the people of Israel:
8 The LORD is compassionate and gracious,
slow to anger, abounding in love.
9 He will not always accuse,
nor will he harbor his anger forever;
10 he does not treat us as our sins deserve
or repay us according to our iniquities.
11 For as high as the heavens are above the earth,
so great is his love for those who fear him;
12 as far as the east is from the west,
so far has he removed our transgressions from us.
his deeds to the people of Israel:
8 The LORD is compassionate and gracious,
slow to anger, abounding in love.
9 He will not always accuse,
nor will he harbor his anger forever;
10 he does not treat us as our sins deserve
or repay us according to our iniquities.
11 For as high as the heavens are above the earth,
so great is his love for those who fear him;
12 as far as the east is from the west,
so far has he removed our transgressions from us.
13 As a father has compassion on his children,
so the LORD has compassion on those who fear him;
14 for he knows how we are formed,
he remembers that we are dust.
15 The life of mortals is like grass,
they flourish like a flower of the field;
16 the wind blows over it and it is gone,
and its place remembers it no more.
17 But from everlasting to everlasting
the LORD’s love is with those who fear him,
and his righteousness with their children’s children—
18 with those who keep his covenant
and remember to obey his precepts.
so the LORD has compassion on those who fear him;
14 for he knows how we are formed,
he remembers that we are dust.
15 The life of mortals is like grass,
they flourish like a flower of the field;
16 the wind blows over it and it is gone,
and its place remembers it no more.
17 But from everlasting to everlasting
the LORD’s love is with those who fear him,
and his righteousness with their children’s children—
18 with those who keep his covenant
and remember to obey his precepts.
19 The LORD has established his throne in heaven,
and his kingdom rules over all.
and his kingdom rules over all.
20 Praise the LORD, you his angels,
you mighty ones who do his bidding,
who obey his word.
21 Praise the LORD, all his heavenly hosts,
you his servants who do his will.
22 Praise the LORD, all his works
everywhere in his dominion.
you mighty ones who do his bidding,
who obey his word.
21 Praise the LORD, all his heavenly hosts,
you his servants who do his will.
22 Praise the LORD, all his works
everywhere in his dominion.
Praise the LORD, my soul.
Enable me to show the same mercy and grace that You have shown me toward those who sin against me, and to hurl their sins into the deepest part of the sea of forgetfulness.
The journey of becoming more like Jesus will never stop.
Not until the day my spirit parts with my body.
Thank You, Lord,
for giving me reasons to believe and to forgive.
for giving me reasons to believe and to forgive.
My Future is Yours.
Proverbs 19:20-21
Listen to advice and accept discipline, and at the end you will be counted among the wise. Many are the plans in a person's heart, but it is the Lord's purpose that prevails.A gentle reminder to commit everything into God's hand. For many are the plans we have for ourselves but in the end, God is the one who decides whether or not to fulfill them. He has the last say.
If God is for us, who can be against us?
People Need The Lord.
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A Reminder:
God doesn't give you the people you want, He gives you the people you need -
to help you, to hurt you, to leave you, to love you and to make you the person you were meant to be.
Fight Together
Somehow I'm very addicted to this song. The rhythms of the songs and its mv. Aww... This is the best anime I have watched so far. Totally in love with it. =D
In Most Cases
It's only when you have lost someone/something precious you start cherish the rest you have. Because what you have lost you cannot have it back anymore but what are left are the ones keeping you alive.
Brotherhood Remains.
Was it good that I was born? Did I deserve that? Questions often asked by majority. Some may judge you, some may condemn you, some may try to put you to death. But God saw that it (your birth) was good, so He put miracles into your life - Love, Faith, Hope.
As long as you are alive, you will figure it out eventually.
Become my son! It doesn't matter who your parents were. Everyone is a child of the sea.
Most of the times it is when things got all messed up we see people who truly love us and willing to sacrifice themselves for us. Then we experience hope.
In the end, all you will want to say is, "Thank you for loving me."
Death occurs. Yet love remains.
This is the saddest moment in One Piece so far.
Who can predict when death is approaching?
Who can really tell "I have no regrets" when the life candle is above to burn out and die with a contented smile carved on his face?
Who can really tell "I have no regrets" when the life candle is above to burn out and die with a contented smile carved on his face?
Life is an unknown.
So live every moment.
( Well, of course I know I am a little too obsessed with One Piece but who cares as long as I'm happy about it. =P )
One Piece.
One Piece OST Haha naru Umi
Am very moved by the friendships they have acquired along their journeys.
No regrets, no complaints. Strengthen themselves just so that they can protect their companions - to an extent they are willing to forgo their own ego selves and let the love/desire for friends overrides their own dreams.
From total different backgrounds and burdens yet in the end they are the ones who have each others' back.
Greater love has no one than this, that he lay down his life for his friends. John 15:13True friend sees the full potential in you and by all means try to help you to accomplish the heights of your life.
If only I have one as such, even if just one, I would be the happiest alive.
Unsaid promises. True love in action.
中毒。
（最近似乎是太容易心动了。呵呵。。。）
看了瑰宝1949后深深被他吸引：
推荐 One Piece！
太太太好看了！
很感人的友情，不一样的故事，激励人的对话。。。
看了瑰宝1949后深深被他吸引：
Darren 邱凯伟 - 很有才华的一名艺人兼设计师。
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| My type my type. =P |
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| *Attracted* |
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| The person and owl! xD |
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| I really think he is very handsome. |
推荐 One Piece！
太太太好看了！
很感人的友情，不一样的故事，激励人的对话。。。
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| The bondings, the friendships - Unbreakable. |
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| When we call each other brothers... |
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| Me love this part. |
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| My favourite character of all - Zoro. |
我最想要的，我的梦想，原来还是逃不开创作设计。
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| Dreamcatchers. How I wish all my dreams will come true. |
（最后才发现，自己所喜爱的都很遥不可及，人和事物。）
Bleak.
Though I knew it from the very beginning, am still feeling superbly sad about it.
I yearn for a second chance but same things just don't happen twice.
What should I do?
Sigh.
I yearn for a second chance but same things just don't happen twice.
What should I do?
Sigh.
无尽的等待
天气变化莫测，好比此刻的心情 - 太多的忧心，太多的牵挂和不知所措。对未来的憧憬像小偷小心翼翼地溜走。不知往昔的理想志愿在何方？如果时光可以倒流，多想要回从前那能单纯为兴趣和梦想，尽管多么渺小，而爆发干劲、热诚的小女孩。
可固执于过去的往往将失去前进的机会。失败、挫折又算什么？路还是要走的，毕竟无人生不是坎坷的。- 我是这样告诉自己。但愿上帝开启一扇门。。。
我依然相信，会有奇迹出现的。
Life's a Maze.
One thing I do best now is wasting my time and youth. Feel so lost and aimless now. What should I do? Which path should be taken?
=(
A Note.
Brain: You shouldn't act so immaturely.
Heart: I am trying! But I am feeling really scared now. Future... So full of uncertainties.
Brain: Hey dear, fear not. God will sort it out for you.
Heart: I know, definitely. But I forget easily. Remind me.
Heart: I am trying! But I am feeling really scared now. Future... So full of uncertainties.
Brain: Hey dear, fear not. God will sort it out for you.
Heart: I know, definitely. But I forget easily. Remind me.
祢知道
Defeated pride. You taught me how to be humble before you.
I keep reminding myself not to be intimidated by how the world may look at me but focus on God alone.
He has made me strong enough to face all these challenges.
It's hard but I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.
A Comfort.
A tough week indeed.
But God is good and faithful. He is all the reason I need to cling on my Hope.
Revelation 3: 7-10
These are the words of him who is holy and true, who holds the key of David. What he opens no one can shut, and what he shuts no one can open. I know your deeds. See, I have placed before you an open door that no one can shut. I know that you have little strength, yet you have kept my word and have not denied my name. I will make those who are of the synagogue of Satan, who claim to be Jews though they are not, but are liars - I will make them come and fall down at your feet and acknowledge that I have loved you. Since you have kept my command to endure patiently, I will also keep you from the hour of trial that is going to come upon the whole world to test those who live on the earth.
Praise You in this Storm by Casting Crowns
My God is faithful. I will soar like an eagle under His wing.
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God is never stingy when it comes to blessing His children. But sometimes He waits until you really trust and rely on Him wholeheartedly and without doubts.
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He has made me glad, blessed me with the love from friends.
I See Love.
Blessings in disguise. Yes I believe. At least I still have friends who care for me, trying to cheer me up and willing to walk with me through this disastrous moment. Thank you Lord. Though I really do not have the slightest clue about what Your will for me is, I will follow you. It is time I stop grumbling.
Laura Story - Blessings
We pray for blessings, we pray for peace.
Comfort for family, protection while we sleep.
We pray for healing, prosperity.
We pray for Your mighty hand to ease our suffering.
All the while, You hear each spoken need.
Your love is way too much to give us lesser things.
Cause what if your blessings come through raindrops?
What if your healing comes through tears?
What if a thousand sleepless nights are what it takes to know You're near?
What if trials of this night, are Your mercies in disguise?
We pray for wisdom, Your voice to hear.
We cry in anger when we cannot feel You near.
We doubt Your goodness, we doubt Your love.
As if every promise from Your word is not enough.
All the while, You hear each desperate plea.
And long that we'd have faith to believe.
Cause what if your blessings come through raindrops?
What if your healing comes through tears?
What if a thousand sleepless nights are what it takes to know You're near?
What if trials of this night, are Your mercies in disguise?
When friends betray us, when darkness seems to win;
We know that pain reminds this heart, that this is not, this is not our home.
It's not our home.
Cause what if your blessings come through raindrops?
What if your healing comes through tears?
What if a thousand sleepless nights are what it takes to know You're near?
What if my greatest disappointments, or the aching of this life;
Is a revealing of greater thirst that a world can't satisfy?
And what if trials of this life, the rain, the storms, the hardest nights;
Are Your mercies in disguise?
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*Chuckles*
God knows me best.
Just when mine thought deceives me into thinking the Lord no longer cares,
He steps in and says,
"The Lord will fight for you; you need only to be still."
Exodus 14:14
I will trust, no matter how hard it will be.
Stress
Dear readers,
I'm scare. I have dreams to fulfil but future seems so full of uncertainties. But I believe in the power of prayers. Please pray for me. Thank you.
瑰寶
Am so in love with this song recently. It reminds me of something important:
In life, we need dreams to keep us alive. We fight for it and never give up. But then, throughout the journey, we need to learn to give and take. Sometimes we just cannot hold on to everything. There are people/matters so important that we need to let go of the others, including our lives.
Love is unconditional. It is sacrificial.
Adele - Rolling In The Deep
There's a fire starting in my heart
Reaching a fever pitch and it's bring me out the dark
Reaching a fever pitch and it's bring me out the dark
Finally I can see you crystal clear
Go ahead and sell me out and I'll lay your ship bare
Go ahead and sell me out and I'll lay your ship bare
See how I'll leave, with every piece of you
Don't underestimate the things that I will do
There's a fire starting in my heart
Reaching a fever pitch and it's bring me out the dark
Don't underestimate the things that I will do
There's a fire starting in my heart
Reaching a fever pitch and it's bring me out the dark
The scars of your love remind me of us
They keep me thinking that we almost had it all
The scars of your love, they leave me breathless
I can't help feeling
We could have had it all
Rolling in the deep
You had my heart inside your hand
And you played it to the beat
And you played it to the beat
Baby, I have no story to be told
But I've heard one of you and I'm gonna make your head burn
Think of me in the depths of your despair
Making a home down there as mine sure won't be shared
The scars of your love remind you of us
They keep me thinking that we almost had it all
The scars of your love, they leave me breathless
I can't help feeling
We could have had it all
Rolling in the deep
You had my heart inside your hand
And you played it to the beat
Could have had it all
Rolling in the deep
You had my heart inside your hand
But you played it with a beating
Throw your soul through every open door
Count your blessings to find what you look for
Turn my sorrow into treasured gold
You pay me back in kind and reap just what you sow
Turn my sorrow into treasured gold
You pay me back in kind and reap just what you sow
(Now I'm gonna wish you never had met me)
We could have had it all
(Tears are gonna fall, rolling in the deep)
We could have had it all
(Now I'm gonna wish you never had met me)
It all, it all, it all, it all
(Tears are gonna fall, rolling in the deep)
It all, it all, it all, it all
(Tears are gonna fall, rolling in the deep)
(Now I'm gonna wish you never had met me)
We could have had it all
(Tears are gonna fall, rolling in the deep)
Rolling in the deep
(Now I'm gonna wish you never had met me)
You had my heart and soul
(Tears are gonna fall, rolling in the deep)
And you played it to the beat
You had my heart and soul
(Tears are gonna fall, rolling in the deep)
And you played it to the beat
(Now I'm gonna wish you never had met me)
Could have had it all
(Tears are gonna fall, rolling in the deep)
Rolling in the deep
(Tears are gonna fall, rolling in the deep)
Rolling in the deep
(Now I'm gonna wish you never had met me)
You had my heart and soul in your hand
(Tears are gonna fall, rolling in the deep)
But you played it, you played it, you played it to the beat
You had my heart and soul in your hand
(Tears are gonna fall, rolling in the deep)
But you played it, you played it, you played it to the beat
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Am furiously in love with this song currently. And the voice of the singer.
结束，另一段故事的开始。
挥了挥手告别了两年的学院生活时，我没哭泣，心里却有百般的无奈与不舍，感触良多。二十岁了，却还拿捏不了潇洒转身离开的技巧，非得让悲伤牵挂纠缠不清。同样的我，一样嗜爱食物，热爱大自然，容易被朋友感动，会思念从前。短短的两年里没什么太大的改变，并没有学会流连于夜店或花钱如水流。然而，一样的热情里却多了一些些的约束与成熟，更懂得如何一个人担当处事，不让父母朋友操心。
两年里，最不舍的是朋友。一起傻一起闹一起欢笑一起用餐过，也一起拼死读书一起搞活动一起庆祝生日过节过，互相地扶持，他们是我精神上的寄托，我的依赖。其中当然少不了不满抱怨互骂等小插曲, 可我相信每个的心中其实还是蛮留恋那时的生活，毕竟不会再重演。
算算没有上课的日子已长达一个月了。这一个月，说长不长，说短也不短，却成了我人生中最难忘的回忆之一。这一个月里，我没回到家乡。反之，去了西马各地旅游 - 在朋友的家里胡闹。呵呵。多希望还能有如此非凡的机会。明知很不孝，可一路我真都没想家过，太好玩了吧？虽说家人排行第一，朋友的分量也不少，两者均不能少，两者亦是我快乐的源头。
我喜欢旅游，到陌生无一人懂我的各个地方探险。不同的风景，不同的美食，不同的文化，一一使我心起涟漪，赞叹不已。人群中，每个都是一个值得学习的对象，一个崭新需要细心解剖的故事。而那人潮中，上帝总不忘让你偶遇几个让你毕生难忘的，另外几个让你心头小鹿乱了脚阵的。一切都如此奇妙，如此多姿多彩。
想说，两年里，上帝从来没有遗忘或离弃过我。祂聆听我的祷告、垂听我内心的呐喊，祂供应我所缺的。虽然等候成绩出炉让人彻夜难眠、惊心胆跳，也一度让我怀疑上帝是否记得我，可最后还是决定将一切都交托给主。毕竟，所有的荣耀都要归给祂。祂是我生命篇章的作者，更毫无条件领我度过每个阶段直到结束为止，再带着我迈向祂所承诺的新开始。祂，没有毁约过。
我的未来，有祂。
我相信祂。
两年里，最不舍的是朋友。一起傻一起闹一起欢笑一起用餐过，也一起拼死读书一起搞活动一起庆祝生日过节过，互相地扶持，他们是我精神上的寄托，我的依赖。其中当然少不了不满抱怨互骂等小插曲, 可我相信每个的心中其实还是蛮留恋那时的生活，毕竟不会再重演。
算算没有上课的日子已长达一个月了。这一个月，说长不长，说短也不短，却成了我人生中最难忘的回忆之一。这一个月里，我没回到家乡。反之，去了西马各地旅游 - 在朋友的家里胡闹。呵呵。多希望还能有如此非凡的机会。明知很不孝，可一路我真都没想家过，太好玩了吧？虽说家人排行第一，朋友的分量也不少，两者均不能少，两者亦是我快乐的源头。
我喜欢旅游，到陌生无一人懂我的各个地方探险。不同的风景，不同的美食，不同的文化，一一使我心起涟漪，赞叹不已。人群中，每个都是一个值得学习的对象，一个崭新需要细心解剖的故事。而那人潮中，上帝总不忘让你偶遇几个让你毕生难忘的，另外几个让你心头小鹿乱了脚阵的。一切都如此奇妙，如此多姿多彩。
想说，两年里，上帝从来没有遗忘或离弃过我。祂聆听我的祷告、垂听我内心的呐喊，祂供应我所缺的。虽然等候成绩出炉让人彻夜难眠、惊心胆跳，也一度让我怀疑上帝是否记得我，可最后还是决定将一切都交托给主。毕竟，所有的荣耀都要归给祂。祂是我生命篇章的作者，更毫无条件领我度过每个阶段直到结束为止，再带着我迈向祂所承诺的新开始。祂，没有毁约过。
我的未来，有祂。
我相信祂。
After All
God's grace is sufficient for me.
I admit my faith have not been very strong all these while. Very fragile in fact. And it swings as if it is a woman having premenstrual syndrome. I'm not joking. It can be very persuasive sometimes, then all of sudden it is seemed roaming across the hectic and hassle city - aimless. Especially now that it is exam season, albeit I only have one more paper left, it seems to be constantly living in fear.
Who wouldn't worry about their future?
Who wouldn't care about their future career?
Who wouldn't feel frustrated when things are not going smoothly as planned?
Who wouldn't feel discouraged when what they have prepared are useless in times of need?
Who wouldn't lose their self-confidence when they know it's actually very easy but still they cannot provide the answer on the spot?
I felt all the way lost and defeated. I am not the kind of weak person who would cry easily but I did. It was awful and tiring. All the stress and disheartenment piled up to be more than endurable. At the edge of breaking down I have no one to turn to, except Him. I actually cried out, "God, God, such a useless child, how can You use her in the future? How can You feel proud of her?" I did not receive any response. All I have asked for is a little miracle. Tears have not dried when I finally fell asleep. The frogs were still guabak-ing from under the drain, or the forest.
I felt very incapacitated even when I woke up this morning. Things have not been very different. The fact that I have ruined the papers have not been erased. It never would. The mask that I deliberately put on, the tears I withheld in front of all the yes-I-have-nailed-it-down eyes, my heart sank. Instantly I felt so inferior. What have I done to deserve all these failures? I have worked so hard for it. The world is never fair, isn't it? Probably I wasn't even supposed to be here.
Finally I chose to run away from the crowd. At least I can be myself in my small small world. Logged on to college WiFi, I have not a slight intention to open my Facebook page. The world in there is not real. No one inside really cared if you have disappeared. Browsing through the blogs, places where people are more likely to express themselves more genuinely (at least I believe so), two of them caught my attention. Again, tears wet my cheek.
God has not forsaken me.
Different persons, different encounters, still He is there for all of us, especially those who are weary, dispirited and brokenhearted. He never really left. All the happenings are meant to draw us closer back to Him, not otherwise. And it is during these moments you intensely seek Him and feel His presence. I might have repeated this for several times previously but this doesn't mean I have forgotten it. It's simply because this is what I need to relearn everyday. Sometimes I can't help but to think myself a hypocrite - able to convince others of God's promises but not to myself. Perhaps, a constant reminder for myself to stop doubting and fearing is vital. Now I remember what I have read years ago. God gives us trials in life and many times the lessons we learned through it are the same because we forget easily.
To let go of our past failures and to surrender them to God are never easy tasks. But God, most wonderfully and miraculously, can always solve our problems. I'm surrendering my future. I'm not thinking about it anymore. I'm learning, Father.
端午节
今年的端午节虽然没有家人一起庆祝也没有粽子吃，可是依旧可以 google 看粽子照片。
何乐而不为？
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| 最爱的就是红豆沙粽子！ |
开玩笑！
这不是重点。
虽然身在异乡一点点的节日气氛都没有，可是还是有教堂里牧师、主内弟兄姐妹的关怀与热诚，更不缺学院里朋友们开心的欢笑声与满满的爱，最重要的家人们也都平安无恙。
节日的意义何在，若不是亲朋好友们都健康快乐？
感谢主所赐的恩典满溢！
Praise Brings Results
Today's devotion, from www.ccci.org.
"And at the moment they began to sing and to praise, the Lord caused the armies of Ammon, Moab, and Mount Seir to begin fighting among themselves, and they destroyed each other!" (2 Chronicles 20:22).
The armies of Ammon, Moab and Mount Seir had declared war on King Jehoshaphat and the people of Judah. So Jehoshaphat called the people together and prayed, "Oh, our God. Won't you stop them. We have no way to protect ourselves against this mighty army. We don't know what to do but we are looking to You."
Then the Lord instructed the people, "Don't be afraid, don't be paralyzed by this mighty army for the battle is not yours, but God's! Tomorrow, go down and attack them!...But you will not need to fight. Take your places; stand quietly and see the incredible rescue operation God will perform for you" (2 Chronicles 20:15-17).
After consultation with the leaders of the people, Jehoshaphat determined that there should be a choir, clothed in sanctified garments and singing the song, "His Loving kindness Is Forever," leading the march. As they walked along praising and thanking the Lord, He released His mighty power in their behalf.
One of the greatest lessons I have ever learned about the Christian life is the importance of praise and thanksgiving. The greater the problem, the more difficult the circumstances, the greater the crisis, the more important it is to praise God at all times, to worship Him for who He is; for His attributes of sovereignty, love, grace, power, wisdom and might; for the certainty that He will fight for us, that He will demonstrate His supernatural resources in our behalf.
As in the case of Jehoshaphat and the people of Judah when they began to praise God and He caused the three opposing armies to fight against each other and destroy one another, God will fight for us if we trust and obey Him. There is no better way to demonstrate faith and obedience than to praise Him and to thank Him, even when our world is crumbling around us and the enemy is threatening to destroy. God honors praise. Hebrews 13:15 reminds us, "With Jesus' help, we will continually offer our sacrifice of praise to God by telling others of the glory of His name."
"And at the moment they began to sing and to praise, the Lord caused the armies of Ammon, Moab, and Mount Seir to begin fighting among themselves, and they destroyed each other!" (2 Chronicles 20:22).
The armies of Ammon, Moab and Mount Seir had declared war on King Jehoshaphat and the people of Judah. So Jehoshaphat called the people together and prayed, "Oh, our God. Won't you stop them. We have no way to protect ourselves against this mighty army. We don't know what to do but we are looking to You."
Then the Lord instructed the people, "Don't be afraid, don't be paralyzed by this mighty army for the battle is not yours, but God's! Tomorrow, go down and attack them!...But you will not need to fight. Take your places; stand quietly and see the incredible rescue operation God will perform for you" (2 Chronicles 20:15-17).
After consultation with the leaders of the people, Jehoshaphat determined that there should be a choir, clothed in sanctified garments and singing the song, "His Loving kindness Is Forever," leading the march. As they walked along praising and thanking the Lord, He released His mighty power in their behalf.
One of the greatest lessons I have ever learned about the Christian life is the importance of praise and thanksgiving. The greater the problem, the more difficult the circumstances, the greater the crisis, the more important it is to praise God at all times, to worship Him for who He is; for His attributes of sovereignty, love, grace, power, wisdom and might; for the certainty that He will fight for us, that He will demonstrate His supernatural resources in our behalf.
As in the case of Jehoshaphat and the people of Judah when they began to praise God and He caused the three opposing armies to fight against each other and destroy one another, God will fight for us if we trust and obey Him. There is no better way to demonstrate faith and obedience than to praise Him and to thank Him, even when our world is crumbling around us and the enemy is threatening to destroy. God honors praise. Hebrews 13:15 reminds us, "With Jesus' help, we will continually offer our sacrifice of praise to God by telling others of the glory of His name."
Bible Reading: Psalm 136:1, 21-26
TODAY'S ACTION POINT: Today I will continue to praise God and give thanks to Him for who He is. When difficulties arise, I will praise Him all the more and thank Him for His faithfulness. I will depend upon the supernatural resources of God which enable me to live the supernatural life, regardless of the circumstances.
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Afterthought:
When I came across this, I could feel the fire in my heart rekindled - the faith restored. It was my Father in heaven, who has heard my desperate cry and appeal, talking to me through the scriptures. Recently, exam stress and concerns for the future have succeeded in distracting me from fixing my eyes solely on Jesus. Or should I say, ever since I stepped out of my comfort zone, the fear has never left, regardless of all the knowledge that I have acquired about God and His promises. The sudden epiphany taught me to fully understand what Aunty Michele has once told us. (It was dated many years back. Oh I feel so old now.) The knowledge (of God) if stays in mind produces no effects whatsoever. It is not until the knowledge has dissolved into your heart and that you have opened up your heart to trust like a child of his father i.e. total surrender to God's will, you have come to experience and accept Christ personally. Paraphrased. Oh well, I might have added some myself. On that very instant, I knew for sure the anxiety and vexations that I have in my heart, Jesus understands them all.
Rejoice even when you think you have never been so worse off; be thankful for every little/crucial thing that you have gained or lost, you never know what God has in store for you; pray unceasingly and trust faithfully for God listens and He never fails. The least thing you would want to do is to worry. God makes you. No parents would turn away from their children when their children are incapable of even feeding themselves. What more can we expect from God, the Parent of all parents? He will not give beyond your abilities, nor will He allow you to carry the cross all by yourself. The heaviest cross has already been taken up for your sake in fact.
Buck up and move on! Your God IS fighting for you and He has already CONQUERED the battle!
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