Diconnect to Connect: November 2012

First Love

魔法愛情 First Love

詞 : 娃娃曲 : 陶喆導演 : 林錦和

每一次我看到你向我這裏走來
心會狂跳卻不想走開
和你在一起就像飄浮在太空外
忘記身邊一切不存在

我想要有點瘋有點酷跟著你腳步
別再照顧我像你的妹妹
我不要花時間花腦袋再裝不在乎
當我說喜歡你就是給了你魔法戒指

我盼望中的First Love 變出太多的美妙 Yeah
我盼望是你First Love 惟一的想擁抱
那是魔法愛情只有我們知道

我盼望中的First Love 這一切說來奇妙 Oh, Yeah
我盼望是你First Love 當真愛已來到
在這異想世界只有我們就好 Oh , First Love

每一次我看到你向我這裏走來
不為什麼就笑逐顏開 Yeah
和你在一起就像飄浮在太空外
那感覺是做什麼都好

我只要看著你看著我就感覺幸福
愛在心裏如此如此清楚
你總要逗我笑惹我哭再和好如初
愛就像有魔力第一次把我的心給你 Oh , Yeah

我盼望中的First Love 變出太多的美妙 Oh , Yeah
我盼望是你First Love 惟一的想擁抱
那是魔法愛情只有我們知道

我盼望中的First Love 這一切說來奇妙 Oh, Yeah
我盼望是你First Love 當真愛已來到
在這異想世界只有我們就好我們就好 Oh , First Love

Wooo~

我盼望中的First Love 變出太多的美妙 Oh , Yeah
我盼望是你First Love 惟一的想擁抱
那是魔法愛情只有我們知道

我盼望中的First Love 這一切說來奇妙 Oh, Yeah
我盼望是你First Love 當真愛已來到
在這異想世界只有我們就好我們就好 Oh , First Love

無論如何

你有我百分百的祝福。：）

不過我還是很希望你能親口告訴我你們在一起了。
因為我想親口告訴你，我真的祝福你們！

My dream

In the near future, I would like to own a small, simple cafe.
It sells everything I love - cakes, coffee, tea, crafts, desserts, etc.
Because I want to share my happiness with other people, including strangers.
I want it to be a place of relaxation, of impact, of hope.
I want my customers to feel blessed, very blessed.

People will feel His presence there. :)

Easier = More time available?

Feel like choosing a simpler course so that I'll have more time for God and for myself, and to learn more extra skills and knowledge.

荒唐之夜 (II)

A summary.

A ridiculous night indeed.

Troubled mind.
Sleepless night.
Endless nightmare.
Insufficient sleep.

I forgot to bring my keys out with me today.
Well done.

She was my only hope for getting into my own room without the aid of my landlord. But strangely, she also forgot to bring her keys out while leaving for dinner. So there, we were stucked.

Landlord promised to open the door for us at around 10pm but at 10.40pm, he said he was too tired to come over to unlock the door. We were supposed to end up sleeping in our another housemate's room when she suddenly had the urge to try opening the door using that housemate's key. To our surprise, she succeeded!

Hooray! :D

×××

This incident taught me to be more creative and be more than willing to try new ideas at all times, even if some of them may appear to be very absurd. Failing does not necessarily bring negative effects, and sometimes without any of them. But the chance to succeed will always be there if only you are willing to just try and keep trying.

No harm trying eh?

×××

Chillax n' enjoy!

Ailee_Evening Sky

荒唐之夜

卻也讓我領受了神滿滿的祝福。
衷心感謝有你們在。
我真的很幸福。♥

它

有人愛是幸福的，可是能夠愛人更幸福。
只有全心全意的去愛一個人，你才能真正的經歷人生。
就算最後沒能在一起也不要糟蹋了那份愛意，尊重它，保護它。

感言

我不相信那些人口中所說的，愛的只有一個，喜歡的可以有很多個。
多麼不負責任的話啊！
更何況，愛不該是選擇題。
它絕對是每天該做的選擇，卻萬萬不可以是選擇題。
專一，不是在婚後才效法，而是婚前就該培養出來了的。

小心選擇伴侶啊！
祝你幸福！
：）

A word of wisdom

And she said,

What's annoying is you undermine yourself way below ur standard:your views aren't urs cos they're irresponsible unlike you, you dress to distort cos you feel less effort gains you something so why the effort, and the partners you pick defy the confidence you claim to have - why claim foolery when you're wise, now that's foolish. (Quoted, Ms Rena)

Trust.

To have my trust for you betrayed,
it felt as if I merely your toy,
played then forsook.

How hard can it be, to be completely honest with one another?

我接受不到咯！

有些事，不該發生的都已發生了。
有些人，我不知該以什麼心態去面對。

感恩的心

他，有時真的很欠打、欠罵。
可是無可否認的是他，其實對我很好。

謝謝你。：）

The Piano Guys ♥

This is really breathtaking!

Durian feast!

Finally, REAL durians!

Thanks to ZY and his parents for their generosity and hospitality.

Great night it is, indeed.

With a heart full of thanksgiving,

The blessed child of God. :)

The He(s)

He no.1 :-
He said not to worry about what course to take first but to set my priority right. With good grades come more options.

He no.2 :-
He is sweet, but the sweet is bitter.

A nonsensical jumble of words

I feel like screaming my heart out,
right here right now.

...

I seriously do not know which to choose.
Opinions are like waves,
sweeping away my conviction,
creating controversy.
I don't want to just settle for the I-think-this-is-better-for-you,
because what you think may not be equivalent to what I think.
But what do I really want,
I am still pondering.
I wish decision making is easier than it is now,
though it may mean less challenges.
I understand the so-called "The Right Path" does not exist.
As long as you are at peace and with no regret,
you are on the right track.

Please allow me more time to think about it.
Because at the end of the day,
I don't wish to utter,
"It's a life stolen."

Crossroad, again.

She, the one I respected, sent me this,

“You can only become truly accomplished at something you love. Don’t make money your goal. Instead pursue the things you love doing and then do them so well that people can’t take their eyes off of you.” - MAYA ANGELOU

But what is it that I love?

Another she, whom I endeared, told me to multiply my God-given talents.
But I have no confident in doing so.

Where should I go now?

I'm tired of standing at the crossroad, being engulfed by my own indecisiveness.

He has given me wings to fly high, but to which sky should I depart?

Doomed.

The curious cat has been killed yet again.
Awesome.

差遣我

Isaiah 6:8

New International Version (NIV)

⁸Then I heard the voice of the Lord saying, “Whom shall I send? And who will go for us?”
And I said, “Here am I. Send me!”

A greedy thought

Sometimes I wish I can create unlimited interesting topics so that I will be able to click with everyone I want to. Some people are just natural with that, but not I.

Psalm 73:26

My flesh and my heart may fail,
but God is the strength of my heart and my portion forever.

Blessings, so Abundantly!

And I declare, "God is good!"

After exams last week we were supposed to go to Melaka - 5 of us. However, due to last minute withdrawal of two of them, we cancelled the trip. I was very upset to be candid. But later that day, I found that one of the three left was sick, very sick. And my throat was showing some positive symptoms of illness, too. I thought to the Lord, "Thank God the trip was cancelled. If not, it'd be such a waste." Despite the cancellation of the trip, the weekend was still a very splendid one. I had so much fun with Andrew & co. and I didn't regret it. I laughed until I have my abs. Just imagine the fun of it! Then today I went out with my friends from university. Again, it was a day full of laughters and joy. God has never failed to cheer me up.

Just when I thought things can never be better, He has MORE surprises prepared for me ahead. He uncovered them one at a step.

One of my very best friends suddenly told me she is coming back this week and wants us to meet up. I was overjoyed. I really missed her and couldn't wait to seeing her already. She told me earlier that she wasn't able to come back for quite some time so I wasn't expecting to see her anytime soon. This coming back is a last minute planning too. Oh my, oh my, this really makes my day. And as if the surprise alone wasn't good enough, God gave me yet another even greater one. She invited me to join her in her Melaka trip! I am really in awe of how His plan works. Seriously. If I have gone to Melaka that time, I wouldn't be able to join her for the upcoming one and I wouldn't be able to spend more time with her during her short stay here. His name is to be praised indeed!

There are other fields in my personal life which He has blessed so extravagantly. Things have not been smooth all the times but all I can say is, whenever God thwarts a plan or allows any sort of disheartenments, He always substitutes with a better alternative, if only you allow Him. Trust and obedience will never fail you.

He is the Living God who listens to your prayers and answers them.
He sees your heartbrokennesses, He heals and fills them with Living Water.
He hears the cries from the core of your heart and He delivers you from them.

I am a happy girl.
Cheers!
:D

不捨得，真的。

在發送那段訊息的那一剎那，我心中有百般的不捨 - 不是對此地，而是對家裡的每一個人。

：'（

To have you participating in my life

I want my wedding photo to be taken by my very good friends, not just some random photography studios. ;)

A Quote

You're going to have to start using that brain of yours to access that talent of yours to show that beautiful heart of yours.

Harris McElroy

First Love ≠ Right One.

First love, always the sweetest eh?
But I should not think so.
If it is breakable, then the sweetest one is yet to come.
The only matter is that whether or not you can let go of the former to accept the latter.
If you keep clinging onto the past, even when the right one is just right next to you, I bet you can hardly notice him/her.

Awesomeness!

He messaged me,

"cny ticket got cheap. go buy. inform all your friends."

How sweet~
And yes I did what he said. I bought it and told me friends.
RM397. Return tickets.
Can you imagine it? It's for Chinese New Year next year!
I thought I'd have to spend more than RM600 on just a one-way ticket!
Thank God I have waited. And thank God for sending the messanger.
Thank God for He is great!

My heart is so full with joy now.
He is beyond awesomeness!
♥

耐性

其實很多時候我不說但並不代表我不在意。
人的耐性是有限的。老虎不發威別當它是病貓。
它只是認為沒有必要絕情到如此罷了。

請別試圖超越我的底線。
你會後悔的。

付出的理由

『有时候，想念一个人不需要理由』－YC. Tay
『有时候，喜欢一个人不需要付出』－MY. Chia

你说，不能喜欢，不会喜欢。
你说，已经放下，已经忘记。

其实，何必计较？何必烦恼？

问问自己，看透心里最深处吧！
你… 喜欢她吗？
所谓一道永远过不去的河。

身为朋友的我。
永远支持你。

很有可能会受伤，但是并不反对你多走一步。
『如果喜欢，就勇敢的说出来。』－SW. Lim
受伤又怎样，至少尝试过。
机会是自己争取的。

太小心，在一些场合，会是反效果。
太冲动，当然也一样。

有多难… 才可以把自己的心交给另一个人？
加油。

慢慢去发现『恋爱』的美好。

一段恋情，需要『付出』真心，需要『理由』去坚持。

祝福你。

妮可＿上

[Taken from n6y4, dated Nov 6th]

XXX

喜歡這篇文章。
理由：不詳。

我想每個人都自然會有所顧忌吧。
要真的把心交給另一個人是非常難、很需要勇氣的。
本人認為若每個人單單喜歡就說出口，那世界已大亂。
不過很贊成的是，如果真的真心喜歡上了，有“他/她是最後，我想和他/她共度餘生”的念頭，那即使會受傷，即使最後未必會有結果，也該踏出那一步去追求。
感情是需要付出代價的。
一帆風順的不叫真感情。

或許改變，就只是一步之差。

是的，

一段恋情，需要『付出』真心，需要『理由』去坚持。

Rain

Though they said the rain may be acidic and contain pollutants, being caught in the rain once in a while is actually not that bad also. But I somehow wish I have the courage to get drenched totally.

對你我無可奈何

英文太差，有待進步。
可是我等不及了。我要它馬上現在立刻增強！：（

Nonsense

Sometimes I think I should have been born a boy.
I don't act like a girl.
They don't treat me as a girl either.

Shrug.

動搖/失落之心

明知沒有結果的，
要如何讓自己不再期待、冥想？

:( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :(

Sometimes I detest myself for being such a procrastinator.

When can I be like one of those who is very productive, concentrated, and determined?
I really admire them.

Curiosity

They said, curiosity kills the cat.
But how many times have I let my curiosity runs wild?
And how many times have I been killed already?
Still find it hard to learn from it.

I'm curious! Very!

But maybe I should really learn to just let things flow.
What you don't know might in the end become your strongest weapon.
Who knows, right?

xxx

不了解的人和事物有太多，好奇心太強卻不被滿足。
不要緊。或許沒有想像中複雜。就順其自然吧！加油！

復原

他的經歷頓時勾起我對我們殘餘的記憶
曾經的我們也一樣難以割捨對對方的愛意
但我現在了解了
見不到未來的無謂糾纏不清

說我冷酷無情不是的
我們都為了對方付出了太多
眼淚心悸和那久久不能癒合的傷痛是最佳的證明
但是真的沒有所謂的沒有了你我難以繼續生活
看當初哭得撕心裂肺
現在雖然還有缺口但不也都還是過的好好的

He knows it all

He understood my condition and He sent an angel at that very instant to fetch me home.
I'm very grateful.
:)

***

Was browsing all the old photos so that I can find a suitable photo for ZGu, then I realised just how much I miss them. Not just the moments we had spent together, but them, each one of them.

This also reminded me of all the goodness He has showered on me. All the people He has led me to, or brought into my life - without them, I am no longer the I am now. I sincerely want to do something for them, including those whom I'm not very close with, I wish I can at least make their happiness really flows from within, even if just for that very moment in their whole lifetime. Because I love them and I want them to know.

Enable me.
Let my creativity runs wild.