Decided.

I shouldn’t have doubted or worried too much for my God is almighty and faithful. Whom shall I fear except Him? What can withdraw me from doing what I am doing if He is not against me? All I need to do now is to stay focus. Focus on God alone. Strive to accomplish His will. Learn to surrender, not just 50%, 90% or 99% but 100%. By God’s grace, I am still breathing. And by His grace, again, I shall be able to walk the path He has opened for me.

My Lord, He never forsakes me even when mine eyes are blinded with all the complications I have created for myself.

O My Lord, He loves me so. My every breath of air is the proof of His faithfulness.

When You Were A Kid.

Everyone has a dream. But don't just dream. Blend in actions, have faith that it is going to happen.

Remorse

Sorry. I just couldn't help it. I should have kept your heart secure and warm, but I didn't. It pains me when you make me your outlet of anger, but it hurts me more when I say harsh things back to you.

Sigh. When can I grow up to be a more mature person, to be able to comfort you in your anger and grievance, and not retaliate?

雨。未停

雨声轻敲开

深夜里本就不属你的寂静

水花潇洒溅在落地窗上

朦胧了无人的夜景

无言

你玩着吉他低哼想回到过去

旋律和谐伴奏    抚平人心

却无意透露了一抹忧伤

回忆时而近忽而远

我们都没有时光机

无奈

细细的雨丝

没能媲美你所有的细腻

雨水的溜走

便是你离去的预兆

滴答滴答    滴答滴答

思念随着节奏起舞

滴答滴滴答    滴答滴滴答

思绪开始混乱

你的离去在雨停之后

淋湿了的衣衫未干

就已浸透了心    好冰冷

薄情的玻璃窗

透明却巩固

毫不留情的搁浅

那姗姗来迟的    我爱你

忘记 - 李佳薇

前奏:

爱过你 忘了你

主歌1 :

每一次的深呼吸

都是缺乏了你的空气

太阳下 我眼泪已蒸发却

扫不去 洗不尽

那些对你的恋依

主歌 2 :

说好了别再牵挂

牵挂却是我无法自拔 的步伐

如何才能放开你手去接受

副歌 :

我闭上眼睛听

自己的心跳和哭泣

找不到你爱过的痕迹

那是什么心情 早该忘记

分手之前的太美丽

就让思念苦涩都溶化

让伤痛在微笑中缓缓结痂

你给的专属和权利

要通通都忘记

橋段 :

相爱在错的季节时候

我们什么也没有

只留下分开的理由

回忆中的美，现实的残酷。

你的温柔你的腼腆魔法般触动我的心弦

爱丽丝的梦境里我紧紧追寻你影子

翻了又翻你给的线索想回忆起你的回忆

还是被囚困在你精密设计的心迷宫

窗台上透明的沙漏不断提醒我时间的短促

心在沉淀手中那泛黄的照片依旧不愿丢弃

尽管我不知该要如何才能得到你的救援

现实在低头命运在笑我

你的转变像寂寞的孤弦

怎么配搭音都不再和谐

我的无奈你的无知我徘徊无助

我的眼泪你的无谓我该怎么办

爱不是方程式我无法计算

重新编织脑海中你我褪色的欢乐

要多少努力几份肯定

思绪不断涌出阻挡我追逐梦想

想把永远爱你写进童话的结尾

没有你我的故事因此写到一半

也许一切只能是场凄美的误会

懵懂的付出，被你潇洒淘汰

楊宗緯-幸福的風

铁盒子

在我拥抱不到的那片天

凝望着远方缠绵的山丘

感叹人的感情何尝不也是一样

无数个让寂寞纠缠的夜

曾试图用繁忙麻痹自己

忘了思念你我犹如行尸走肉般

不慎将你牢锁在心的铁盒里

你的温暖你的欢笑你的承诺

那所有我想回忆的甜蜜美好

（心的呐喊  你听得见吗）

如今想放弃遗失了的钥匙我却找不着

是谁告诉我爱了伤了痛够了

就会自然学习放下逐渐前进

心碎了却没忘却对你的牵挂

（我的眼泪  你没看见吗）

原来最后距离还是你无声的转身离去

那熟悉的情人陌生的招呼

是不是有些人明知爱错了却割舍不了

会不会有些幸福真的来不及没结局

却依然固执维护着那残留的涟漪

只知道不会再有第二次一样的邂逅

The Clown.

She is the pistachio in the eyes of the public,

The blithe spirit.

Not in the circus but reality.

Toyed in the world full of selfish desires,

A marionette is obliged to give sprightliness to it.

Her masquerade of smile at no time ceased,

And she will never forsake her shield of laughter.

The happiness she inoculated wears her out

But she has nowhere to aver her gall,

For these are her lines of work.

She knows but the dictations of her superiors,

And the hypnosis that the joy she induced is the wage.

She no longer remembers who she once was;

It was taken away years ago.

The Clown, she was a child erst,
Who can make her heart smiles again?

Something Dear to My Heart.

Every breath of air seems too heavy to be inhaled, for now. I reckon it will get heavier later.

Just came back from Chinese New Year visitations. It was fun, amazing, significant indeed. It cannot be framed by words. Many I failed to go again this year, I wish I did. Those that I have been to, I really enjoyed their hospitality and their companionship, and food of course. All these houses I wonder when can I set my feet on again. I know everything moves on, there is a tomorrow waiting ahead. But why does my heart feel so lost and empty? Sigh.

A flight to catch tomorrow, yet I hope I will miss it. I want to be here. Just here, where everyone is.

 Only this place is... Special.

I don't want to leave.