田馥甄 - LOVE!
田馥甄 - LOVE! LOVE!
詞曲 : 黃淑惠
我愛你 你愛她
她愛她 她愛他
你愛我 我愛他
他愛他 他愛她
咦
怎麼這世界 已經沒有人相愛
怎麼這世界 每個人都不快樂
怎麼這世界 每個人都愛別人 不愛自己
My heart wonders
I am home alone again. It's ironic enough. This is not even my home but where else can I go? I really miss home. =(
Recently, I am lost in a way I cannot find a way out of this maze. Whenever I look at others' blog, especially Jan, I will wonder how can a person rejoice in the Lord all the time? It's God's grace I know. Of course I know. I mean it has always been in my mind God's way is perfect and without flaws, we therefore should not worry and doubt Him. But you know, as more and more negative facts I discovered, I started to ponder what am I standing on, what am I holding on to. I then found my faith as tiny as the mustard seed, so easily moved. How could a person like me once thought of using my own life as the fifth Gospel to bring non-believers to Christ? I have all the knowledge but what for if it is not even transmitted to my heart? It is the heart that the Lord seeks, not the intelligence. What can I do to win the fight? How should I finish the race with victory?
Recently, I am lost in a way I cannot find a way out of this maze. Whenever I look at others' blog, especially Jan, I will wonder how can a person rejoice in the Lord all the time? It's God's grace I know. Of course I know. I mean it has always been in my mind God's way is perfect and without flaws, we therefore should not worry and doubt Him. But you know, as more and more negative facts I discovered, I started to ponder what am I standing on, what am I holding on to. I then found my faith as tiny as the mustard seed, so easily moved. How could a person like me once thought of using my own life as the fifth Gospel to bring non-believers to Christ? I have all the knowledge but what for if it is not even transmitted to my heart? It is the heart that the Lord seeks, not the intelligence. What can I do to win the fight? How should I finish the race with victory?
GoodBye
A goodbye never means only a goodbye
Silently it whispers sardonically
And brings alongside detachment and distance
An insignificant one second indeed
Yet how mighty is the ability to shatter hopes and dreams
A goodbye ceases sweet promises and assurances
As if their existences are merely fairy tales
Often you'll question what defines goodbye
Is it just a simple combination of seven alphabets
Or is it a faded affection
A goodbye wears out sincere smiles
Forcefully yet involuntarily
The heartbreak within who can empathise
Where then to fill this endless loneliness
Carved by goodbyes
faith
the one i wish i can hold on to forever...
you cry,
every tear that drops
your disappointments shown,
because you can dream no more.
i know. it is fear
as dark as a black hole
sucking all the possibilities,
shattering them apart.
but hey,
success isn't the only solution,
neither failure points only towards dead end.
it sounds absurd
but listen:
the road to victory
is the process of learning to fall.
many knew the truth
yet misintepreted it.
(they fell from cliffs and roofs)
so beware.
we grabbed too many along the journey
until we suffocated ourselves.
perhaps,
it's time to empty our hands,
to fall from our own plans,
to surrender.
it's time to trust.
软软的豆腐
刚才在朋友的部落格里看到一篇关于她感受的文章-- 不想继续做豆腐。说真的，最近的我真的越来越像一片快要烂掉的豆腐。不为什么，纯粹只是因为自己太过软弱，经不起那么一点点的挫折。说真的，最近很不开心，却又不知该如何去处理这感受。整个心像一片的豆腐，触碰到伤口就直接被击垮。一直都以为自己很坚强，跌倒了可以很快就爬起来。原来，这一切都是自己对自己撒下的谎言。这么久都一直选择逃避。假装的坚强变成了倔强，然觉得自己真的很傻，不懂得疼爱自己。
或许是时候该学习放手，坦然地面对事实，才能变得真正的坚强。
a song to share
J Rice - Thank You For The Broken Heart
Everything I know about love I learned from you, from you
And everything I know about pain I learned from you, from you
You were my only, You were my first
You showed me lonely, and you took me in when I was hurt
But the most important thing you ever gave me,
You was the one that hurt the most
So thank you for the broken heart, oh yeah
And thank you for the permanent scar
Cause if it wasn't for you
I might forget, how it feels to let go
And how it feels to get a brand new start
So thank you for the broken heart
I still remember when you called
and said that he didn't mean anything
How could you expect me to look at you the same way
You were my only but not my last
You showed me lonely, and you made me put you in the past
The most important thing you ever gave me was the one that hurt the most
So thank you for the broken heart, oh yeah
And thank you for the permanent scar
Cause if it wasn't for you
I might forget, how it feels to let go
And how it feels to get a brand new start
So thank you for the broken heart
And everytime I find myself alone in pieces
I find myself I'll just remember when you hurt me and I made it
So thankyou for the broken heart
And thankyou for the permanent scar
Cause if it wasn't for you
I wouldn't be here, With the love of my life all my pain disappeared
I've come so far
So thankyou for the broken heart
I thank you, I thank you
For the broken heart
Broken heart
My broken heart..
Everything I know about love I learned from you, from you
And everything I know about pain I learned from you, from you
You were my only, You were my first
You showed me lonely, and you took me in when I was hurt
But the most important thing you ever gave me,
You was the one that hurt the most
So thank you for the broken heart, oh yeah
And thank you for the permanent scar
Cause if it wasn't for you
I might forget, how it feels to let go
And how it feels to get a brand new start
So thank you for the broken heart
I still remember when you called
and said that he didn't mean anything
How could you expect me to look at you the same way
You were my only but not my last
You showed me lonely, and you made me put you in the past
The most important thing you ever gave me was the one that hurt the most
So thank you for the broken heart, oh yeah
And thank you for the permanent scar
Cause if it wasn't for you
I might forget, how it feels to let go
And how it feels to get a brand new start
So thank you for the broken heart
And everytime I find myself alone in pieces
I find myself I'll just remember when you hurt me and I made it
So thankyou for the broken heart
And thankyou for the permanent scar
Cause if it wasn't for you
I wouldn't be here, With the love of my life all my pain disappeared
I've come so far
So thankyou for the broken heart
I thank you, I thank you
For the broken heart
Broken heart
My broken heart..
kuching
arrived at kuching safely at nine yesterday night. thought of the things that ought to be done in this holiday. some made me smiled and some made me sighed. perhaps, i should learn to take up the responsibilities. i am going to be twenty next year though.
To do list:
- community service
- university personal statement
- read Mansfield Park
- read Super Freakonomics
kompiakampuameet with my long lost friends^-^- economics essays
- english essay
hair cutchange my driving license
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